Just a tidbit please

This mama has slipped off the sugar-free wagon. It happened slowly - a dessert here, some honey there, an accepted offer of chocolate....a donut from the bakery....caramel slice....
*sigh*
So delicious, these little tidbits...and so, well, satisfying.
And yet I can feel myself begin to clog up. I can feel those crazy cravings return and demand my attention. I can watch as I bend my days in order to incorporate more sugar here and there. Its subtle and subversive but most definitely alive and taking power from me.
'Tis a curious thing, the recognition that your life is being driven, to some extent, by the forces of a chemical found commonly in everyday life.
Don't get me wrong here, I don't necessarily believe that sugar is bad, just that I don't have a very strong ability to say no to its wiles. My tolerance is low and I'm easily swayed.
But I've also had enough of this. You see, I want to be in control. I want to know what my limits are - how much I can have before I'll tip over the edge and cravings will start to rule.
But I need to be gentle with myself. Like many things in life its a journey, sometimes magical and enlightening and sometimes just baby steps and forgiveness for falling down again. This Mama definitely needs to be gentle and let her inner child learn and grow, and let her inner critic take a long holiday.