Suppose that life in the family is recognised as a path, a school for the soul and the spirit? What does this bring for the individual parent, for the family, for the child?
- from Lifeways by Davy and Voors
Speaking my truth is becoming more familiar for me these days. I'm practising expressing my gratitude for things in my life and speaking from the heart whenever I can.
And the truth this week, as the beginning of the school year is upon us, is that I'm feeling lost for words when asked about our decision to homeschool this year.
I clam up and freeze. I search for heartfelt words that lead to connection and understanding, but end up saying nothing, or perhaps mumbling a little about something if nothing feels too rude.
Its not what I expected I'd do for something that feels so right to me.
What am I to do? I found myself thinking.
And what I did was sit with the torment inside, rather than resisting it. I listened to what it had to say, immersing myself in its tension.
This is what I heard:
- that I'm sad to not be a part of the primary school this year
- that I'm scared of damaging Rosie's education and self esteem in some way
-that this beginning time of year is a time of great expectations for everyone
-that its okay to freeze and be unsure, for that's how I learn and question and look deeper.
-that homeschooling still feels right despite these fears and grieving.
And that we are all on the same educational journey, whether we homeschool or allow our children to attend an institution - we all want what's best for them.
We all want self-directed learners who question and seek answers. We all want joyous, happy little ones who grow in all their glorious ways, uninhibited and owning their own interests, passions and gifts. We all want our children to be true to themselves.
There is no right or wrong way when these are our goals as parents and educators. There are just different ways that feel right to us.
These words help to calm my panic. They soothe and let me take that much-needed step back. And I'm grateful for that.
Wishing you a beautiful new beginning and the blossoming of your children.
Carolyn x x
2 comments:
Some of us march to a different drummer. doesn't make us or our choice of pathway wrong, just different. Our daughter has chosen a different drum this year, moving out of home to follow her pathway. It is not the same pathway as many others, and it will probably be hard for her at times, but hard doesn't make it wrong.
Such, kind and sage advice - thank-you. xx
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